Thursday, December 18, 2008


*Got an estimate on the truck today. $1600 worth of damage. Figured that much.

*I got a HUGE Christmas bonus from my boss. I've already spent half of it.

*I am now the proud owner iPhone!!!!!!!!! YES!!!
I am so in love with it. You have no idea.

*I also got Animal Crossing City Folk and I'm addicted.

*K almost hit another deer going to work yesterday morning. If he did I'm not sure I could handle it.

*I'm also not sure anyone reads my blog anymore. :(

Monday, December 15, 2008

Worst Week Ever

It all started with my birthday and it's all been down hill since then. Just nothing going right.

This morning, the cat knocked over and broke the table/lamp thing (that I hate) and broke both of my candy dishes, spilled and wasted an entire bag of m&m's.

Then I get an email from my sister blaming me for breaking away from my family. It's all my fault blah blah. Same shit I've heard before.

Not. Having. A Good. Day.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Pics of the truck

Hit a deer tonight

It's 1:30 a.m. I'm exhausted. Went to bff's for MK racing, on the way hit a deer. We are OK. The deer and truck are not. Every time I close my eyes I see it. I feel it going under our tires. I dread sleep. I keep crying, for the deer and the truck.

Going to bed. Pray I sleep dreamless.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Kitchens & Baths

Does anyone else get this magazine? It's like my little happy place. I'm obsessed with kitchens. When we get ready to build the kitchen is going to be 25% of the entire budget of the house. Seriously.

So I was drooling, I mean flipping through it, and saw so much! So so much I want.

Of course they are going to show you the best of the best. Gotta sell that expensive shit some how. :D

I found this. CLICK HERE The one in the magazine is $3147. That's a lot of money for a shower.

I also found a pic of my dream kitchen. *swoon* This magazine will be the death of me. Well, the death of our budget at least. ;)

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

I envy happy people

How do you go through life happy? My birthday was a fucking dud yesterday. None of my IRL friends called, emailed, faxed, text...nothing to wish me happy birthday.

I'm done. I'm so fucking depressed right now it isn't even funny. I've been crying off and on since last night. I just don't know what to do anymore. Am I really that much of an insignificant human being? No one can even wish me a happy birthday. I literally feel that small right now.

I know the older you get the harder it is to make friends but right now the friends I have suck! I've met some girls online that have truly been a blessing to me. But...they live hours away from me. It's not like we can just up and go shopping or anything. It's all via the internet.

I just feel so damn alone. *sigh*

Monday, December 8, 2008

Happy Birthday to ME!

I turn 31 today. I seriously can not believe I'm this old. I'm not a fan of getting older. I miss my youth. You know, the days where you didnt have to worry about bills. Your parents hid all of that from you.

I don't plan on doing shit today. I need to clean and go grocery shopping but I refuse. :P

I got my tattoo so that is my present. I don't want anything else. I will always remember my 30th year. The year it all changed.

Hope y'all have a wonderful day! I plan on it.

Saturday, December 6, 2008

Who wants to see it!?!?!?

Y'all seriously have no idea how much I'm in love. I've been wanting this for years. Well, not this one but another tattoo. One with meaning.


Eeeeee!!!! It's so pretty!

And yes, it hurt like a MOTHER FUCKER! OMG! Not as bad as kidney stones but it could give them a run for the money. Seriously!

Totally worth it!

Friday, December 5, 2008

Learning to move on.

I have trust issues. I've so far in my life, been burned by everyone I have ever crossed paths with. In some form or another. Even K has hurt me pretty bad when we first started dating.

My mom, sister, dad and ever friend I've ever had. Let me take that back. There have been a very very few friends that haven't burned me. The others I find out either talk trash about me behind my back or have jealousy issues or just don't tell me the truth.

It's kind of hard to trust people after that. I have good reason not to. So when I do put my trust in someone and shortly after that I get burned, I get bitter. I'm at the bitter stages now. I found out not too long ago that some shit was going on behind my back. No one had the balls to talk to me to my face. I'm learning that some of those friends were never my friends to begin with. It hurts.

I'm trying to let go and move on. It's hard. I've been stressing over this for a while now. Months. For my own sanity I'm going to have to forget these people. I know everyone crosses paths for a reason. I just haven't figured some of that out yet.

Yeah, I know...Sad, depressing post. But now that I said this, it's time to move on. For those in my life, I thank God for you every day. You are my glue, keeping me together.
Love you and thank you.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

I've come to the conclusion

that my tree needs more ornaments. It looks good IRL but it does not photograph well. Awww Just like me. ;)

I'm going to try to hold out for the after Christmas sales. My mom and I hit up Wal-Mart one year and hit the mother load. We did so good! Spend under $10 and had bags full of crap. lol

This year bestie and me are going. Should be interesting. :)

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Christmas Tree Pics

The cutest ornament!!

Close up

I'm finally doing it

I'm going Friday to get my tattoo! I am so freaking excited. I've been wanting another one for years. I just couldn't ever make up my mind what I wanted until I was searching google for ideas and it came to me. Once I saw it I knew! I had to have it!

I'm not telling or showing anyone what it is until I get it. That way I dont have to worry about anyone talking badly about it or anything else. I'm doing what I want to do!


I promise to post pics as soon as I can.


Dear Mother Nature,

Please stop with the weather changing crap. It was 41 degrees Monday, Tuesday it was 54 degrees, Today high of 66. Now tomorrow it's going to be 41 degrees again. Seriously?!?! My head feels like it is going to explode. The sinus pressure is killing me. The up down up down has to stop.

Please. I beg of you. Make up your flippin mind.

Another reason not to like Mississippi!


~S and her sinus issues