Update

*Got an estimate on the truck today. $1600 worth of damage. Figured that much.

*I got a HUGE Christmas bonus from my boss. I've already spent half of it.

*I am now the proud owner of......an iPhone!!!!!!!!! YES!!!
I am so in love with it. You have no idea.

*I also got Animal Crossing City Folk and I'm addicted.

*K almost hit another deer going to work yesterday morning. If he did I'm not sure I could handle it.

*I'm also not sure anyone reads my blog anymore. :(

Worst Week Ever

It all started with my birthday and it's all been down hill since then. Just nothing going right.

This morning, the cat knocked over and broke the table/lamp thing (that I hate) and broke both of my candy dishes, spilled and wasted an entire bag of m&m's.

Then I get an email from my sister blaming me for breaking away from my family. It's all my fault blah blah. Same shit I've heard before.

Not. Having. A Good. Day.

Pics of the truck

Hit a deer tonight

It's 1:30 a.m. I'm exhausted. Went to bff's for MK racing, on the way hit a deer. We are OK. The deer and truck are not. Every time I close my eyes I see it. I feel it going under our tires. I dread sleep. I keep crying, for the deer and the truck.

Going to bed. Pray I sleep dreamless.

Kitchens & Baths

Does anyone else get this magazine? It's like my little happy place. I'm obsessed with kitchens. When we get ready to build the kitchen is going to be 25% of the entire budget of the house. Seriously.

So I was drooling, I mean flipping through it, and saw so much! So so much I want.

Of course they are going to show you the best of the best. Gotta sell that expensive shit some how. :D

I found this. CLICK HERE The one in the magazine is $3147. That's a lot of money for a shower.

I also found a pic of my dream kitchen. *swoon* This magazine will be the death of me. Well, the death of our budget at least. ;)

I envy happy people

How do you go through life happy? My birthday was a fucking dud yesterday. None of my IRL friends called, emailed, faxed, text...nothing to wish me happy birthday.

I'm done. I'm so fucking depressed right now it isn't even funny. I've been crying off and on since last night. I just don't know what to do anymore. Am I really that much of an insignificant human being? No one can even wish me a happy birthday. I literally feel that small right now.

I know the older you get the harder it is to make friends but right now the friends I have suck! I've met some girls online that have truly been a blessing to me. But...they live hours away from me. It's not like we can just up and go shopping or anything. It's all via the internet.

I just feel so damn alone. *sigh*

Happy Birthday to ME!

I turn 31 today. I seriously can not believe I'm this old. I'm not a fan of getting older. I miss my youth. You know, the days where you didnt have to worry about bills. Your parents hid all of that from you.

I don't plan on doing shit today. I need to clean and go grocery shopping but I refuse. :P

I got my tattoo so that is my present. I don't want anything else. I will always remember my 30th year. The year it all changed.

Hope y'all have a wonderful day! I plan on it.

Who wants to see it!?!?!?

Y'all seriously have no idea how much I'm in love. I've been wanting this for years. Well, not this one but another tattoo. One with meaning.

Ready!??!!??!




Eeeeee!!!! It's so pretty!

And yes, it hurt like a MOTHER FUCKER! OMG! Not as bad as kidney stones but it could give them a run for the money. Seriously!

Totally worth it!

Learning to move on.

I have trust issues. I've so far in my life, been burned by everyone I have ever crossed paths with. In some form or another. Even K has hurt me pretty bad when we first started dating.

My mom, sister, dad and ever friend I've ever had. Let me take that back. There have been a very very few friends that haven't burned me. The others I find out either talk trash about me behind my back or have jealousy issues or just don't tell me the truth.

It's kind of hard to trust people after that. I have good reason not to. So when I do put my trust in someone and shortly after that I get burned, I get bitter. I'm at the bitter stages now. I found out not too long ago that some shit was going on behind my back. No one had the balls to talk to me to my face. I'm learning that some of those friends were never my friends to begin with. It hurts.

I'm trying to let go and move on. It's hard. I've been stressing over this for a while now. Months. For my own sanity I'm going to have to forget these people. I know everyone crosses paths for a reason. I just haven't figured some of that out yet.

Yeah, I know...Sad, depressing post. But now that I said this, it's time to move on. For those in my life, I thank God for you every day. You are my glue, keeping me together.
Love you and thank you.

I've come to the conclusion

that my tree needs more ornaments. It looks good IRL but it does not photograph well. Awww Just like me. ;)

I'm going to try to hold out for the after Christmas sales. My mom and I hit up Wal-Mart one year and hit the mother load. We did so good! Spend under $10 and had bags full of crap. lol

This year bestie and me are going. Should be interesting. :)

Christmas Tree Pics

The cutest ornament!!



Close up

I'm finally doing it

I'm going Friday to get my tattoo! I am so freaking excited. I've been wanting another one for years. I just couldn't ever make up my mind what I wanted until I was searching google for ideas and it came to me. Once I saw it I knew! I had to have it!

I'm not telling or showing anyone what it is until I get it. That way I dont have to worry about anyone talking badly about it or anything else. I'm doing what I want to do!

Yay!!!!!!!

I promise to post pics as soon as I can.

~S

Dear Mother Nature,

Please stop with the weather changing crap. It was 41 degrees Monday, Tuesday it was 54 degrees, Today high of 66. Now tomorrow it's going to be 41 degrees again. Seriously?!?! My head feels like it is going to explode. The sinus pressure is killing me. The up down up down has to stop.

Please. I beg of you. Make up your flippin mind.

Another reason not to like Mississippi!

Sincerely,

~S and her sinus issues

It's the Most Wonderful Time of the Year

I finally (almost) finished putting up my Christmas decor. It's taken almost two days to finish up. We've been in and out since K has been off work since Tues.
But, I'm not complaining. I get seriously depressed this time of year. I've cried more times than I want to admit over the past 3 days. Not having my family anymore and then his sucks big ole donkey dick. *sigh* It's just depressing.
We never even heard from his family all day Thanksgiving. Still haven't.

Anyway, the reason of my post is this, PICTURES! ;) I don't have any pics of my tree yet. It just got finished late last night.

So....Here we go...

My Carousel. It plays actually works, plays music and lights up. Love it!



I need one more stocking. Actually I want to make my own since I can't find any that I actually like.

*WISH*

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!

I hope everyone eats too much, has a little too much wine and enjoys time with the family. No matter how dysfunctional they are. ;)

What I'm thankful for.

My husband. He is my rock. I honestly don't know where I'd be with out him. He has stood beside me through thick and thin. And while my weight went from thin to thick! lol Sorry had to. ;)

I'm also thankful that I found my BFF again. I missed her like crazy the past 6 years. And although she drives me nuts some days, I don't think I'd chance losing her again.

I'm also thankful that during this economy crisis my husbands job is still 100% intact.

I hope everyone has a wonderful Thanksgiving tomorrow!

DD'd

I deleted my last post. Seems that BFF decided to post on a certain website known for snarky bitches and she got a new asshole ripped.

So I really dont want my blog to be posted everywhere and the snarky bitches of the world wide web to rip it to pieces. So I deleted.

*sigh*

Finished another one...

I did a purple curly q scarf! It's so cute!




Etsy Link Here!!

Say it ain't so!

Prison Break is ending. *cry* How can they take such yumminess off the air?



I shall miss you and your shirtless self. *sniff*

I finished it!!

Go check it out in Etsy!!!! I'm so farking excited!
subtlereflections.etsy.com

Since K's Christmas is a surprise, I'm going to work on his during the day and I'm going to start another scarf tomorrow night! I'm on a roll!!!!

Hubby's Christmas Present

I started on K's Christmas present today. I'm making him a blanket. :D He told me that he wanted a black blanket with the Honda emblem on it.

Well, I figured it was absolutely impossible to do. I searched online for a pattern, but of course there wasn't one. Then I found Crochet Patterns etc on Etsy! I commissioned her to make me a pattern. She had it to me in just a few minutes. She's wonderful!

So I started on it today. I've only gotten 5 rows of the first 51 done so far. :P I've got a long way to go. 250 rows to be exact! lol

O' Christmas Tree

Well, I saw my first Christmas tree up last night. I just can't get over how people are putting their trees up so early.

I refuse to put mine up until after Thanksgiving. So, seeing and hearing about people already decorating is driving me insane. I want! lol

When are you decorating?

Sorry.

I know I'm not posting a lot right now. I'm just blah right now. I'm trying to focus on my crocheting and getting our etsy off the ground.

That's not going so well either. I'm scared people don't like what we are selling. I have another scarf that I'm working on right now. It's the same pink as my brown and pink. Just a different stitch.

I have another one that I've been eying. I want to try my hand at it. It looks so cute! I can't wait to see how it turns out. lol Or if it turns out. After that I want to try to do a beanie hate. Preferably a child's that looks like a bear. Just the ears though, not the eyes and all that. ;)

I'd love feedback. Regular readers, lurkers or just passerby's.

EEEEEeeeeeE!!!

I finished it!!

Newest Project

I just started it today. I actually just learned today how to switch colors. I'm by no means close to finished but thought I'd share anyway.

Whatchya think?

Paranoia

I'm not sure if I'm just a paranoid freak or me being burned so many times, but I wonder if some of my friends are actually that.

I hate feeling like people talk to me to just be nice. I always feel like the black sheep.

I have a hard enough time trusting people as it is, but when no one shows that much interest in your life it just makes you wonder.

Random thoughts on a sleepless night.....

Meal Planning

I am having the hardest time coming up with new meals lately. If it sounds good on paper, doesn't mean it will be good as the final product. So I'm kinda iffy on trying new things out.

It's also making it a lot harder meeting these meal planning goals of mine (5 meals a week) since groceries have gone up so much. I'm trying to find inexpensive meals that taste good.

This is what I'm doing this week.

Tonight: Tacos ~ tried and true ;)
Monday: Ham, veggies and a pasta
Tuesday: Sausage & Biscuits
Wednesday: Chicken Fajitas
Thursday: Pancakes & Sausage
Friday: ~TDB~

I usually don't cook on Fridays but I'm trying to stop that. Eating out on the weekends is getting old too.

We Cheer Review

OK. So, I begged and pleaded and my husband bought me the game. I am freaking loving it! I wasn't so sure about it last night since I sucked so bad at it. Today, I kick ass in it. It does take a min to get use to it. To watch the cheerleader instead of the other thingies.

I played it for about 30 mins tonight and um, well, I'm totally out of shape!! Seriously my arms were burning. FEEL THE BURN! lol

I dont care if you are 10 or 100, this game kicks ass.

For the cheerleader at heart

Or if you want to relive your HS years, introducing Wii Cheer.


OK, so most of you know enough about me by now to know I'm immature. :P I want this game.

I mean, who wouldnt want to play this?

Finally!

My fall weather disappeared this week. It's been right at 80 degrees every day. Yes, it's absolutely gorgeous but I miss my cool weather. I had to turn the air back on since it kept getting so stuffy during the day in here.

Well, there is suppose to be another cold front moving in Friday. Yay!

BTW, new things added to our Etsy!
Check them out...Let me know what you think. And if you can think of anything you'd like to see in there let me know.

Time Change

This time change shit is for the birds. For realz! This has got to be the longest freaking day.

I've been up since 6:30 this morning and I feel like it's midnight. This sucks!

Just thought I'd share! ;)

****Introducing****

Subtle Reflections

It's OPEN! Our etsy store has launched. There isn't much there right now but we are both working on it.
I have 2 secret projects I'm working on and honestly I have no idea what BFF is working on. She's a lot more advanced than I am. :P

So, spread the word. Get us out there.

So excited!!!!

GIMP

Gimp, it's like photoshop but free. I love free stuff. It makes me happy. :)

So I've decided to download it and give fixing some of my pics and making banners a try. Try being the key word here. I do not understand all of the mumbo jumbo crap they are talking about and trying to find a good tutorial online is like pulling teeth.

I did find one but just one. So I decided to give it a try. I took my last blanket pic and "fixed" it. So now here's the new pic.

Major difference in the colors.

I'm going to try to find more online tutorials to figure out what the hell I'm doing. I kinda like this. :) Yay! New projects.

Updated Pics....Again

Sorry if I'm driving y'all crazy with this. I promise last post until I finish in 2010. ;)

Happy Halloween!!

We're going trick or treating tonight. Well, sorta. ;) BFF is coming over and we're going to haul her and her kids around via a trailer attached to the 4wheeler. HAHAH Redneck style.
I tried to get her to steal a bale of hay from the church up the road, but she said that I would go straight to hell for that one. It's not like they will use it after tonight. Right?!?
OK so I wouldn't steal from a church but it would come in handy tonight. :)

I'm kinda excited about going. I'm going to try to take as many pics as I can. No, not of me. Of everyone else. lol Those of you that know me, do you actually think I'd take pics of me? Totally laughable. Not happening.

Anyway, we haven't been TOTing with kids in about 4 or 5 years. Should be interesting.

Hope everyone has a blast tonight wherever and whatever you're doing. And be SAFE!

Well, looks like Murphy moved in.

You know, Murphy's Law.

if anything can go wrong it will

It seems that since our money is tight, all things bad are happening right now. Our thermostat broke night before last. The same night our ceiling fan died in the master bedroom. This is what I get for cleaning the damn thing.

Now, I don't know about you but I can NOT live with out a fan in the bedroom. I have to have the noise and the air movement while I sleep. So for now we have a widdle baby fan in there. Just enough to give me the sound I need to sleep.

Tuesday morning we get up to sub zero temps. OK not really but 30 degrees in MS is fucking cold to us. So we get up, I go to turn the heat on and it never cuts on. Shit. So K came home that night and got to looking at it. The unit in the attic is fine. Working exactly as it's suppose to. So that leaves the thermostat in the hall way. He took the cover off, blew all the dust and rust off and it came on. Um, it's not suppose to have rust on it.
So we're going this weekend to get a digital/programmable one. I've been wanting one anyway to try to save on our light bill. *if they really work like that* So instead of taking a chance with this one we'll just replace it.

But, isn't it funny how when things are tight, everything that can go wrong does? This economy is scaring the shit out of me. I'm SO glad that gas prices are going down. We hit $1.99 the other day. YAY!! *happy dance* I just hope groceries go back down. At least a little bit.

I'm out...

of yarn. :(

Project Pics

I'm so proud of myself. :D

Why I've been MIA

I have learned how to crochet. Yes, me, the non-crafty one of the group. I'm all excited. BFF has known how to since she could basically hold it in her hands. So she took time Friday to take me to Hobby Lobby and buy my first hook and yarn.

She taught me how to single stitch. Well sorta. It was hard as hell to figure it out at first. My brain went into over drive and it wouldnt compute. I couldnt slow it down enough to absorb the info.
So, I came home and practiced. I redid it quite a few times. Actually, I thought I would have to cut the used yarn off because I was wearing it thin. lol

I got up Saturday, after I had mastered the sc (single stitch) and searched youtube for lessons on how to double stitch. Actually I wanted to learn the shell stitch but decided against that since the videos were confusing the shit out of me.

I've now go the dc (double stitch) down pat. I'm actually picking up speed. I'm so proud of myself.

I'll get pics as soon as I have something picture worthy. Right now I'm just on row 2. Not that much to see.

Unicorns Poop Cupcakes

No. Seriously. I have proof.




See. Told ya so. :P

Found here at flikr.

Yay! Cooler weather is here.....again

Gotta love living in Mississippi. You just never know when the weather is actually going to change for the season.

It's suppose to be pretty cool this week. High of right under 80! That's awesome for us. Usually we dont see cool weather until Nov/Dec.

Which leads me to, we went to the grocery store this morning. I get to cook again! YAY! *happy dance* I love cool nights when I can crack a window and have my house smelling of the crisp cool night and food! Nothing like it!

Plus, who can be in a bad mood when the birds are chirping, the sun is shining, the sky is the bluest ever and it's cool outside!

Um, I NEED this!

OMG So freaking gorgeous!! You can find it HERE!

Don't hate me

I ordered Pizza Hut tonight. I KNOW! So wrong. Yet so damn good!

I have to find more healthier recipes. Chicken is just not my thang and to eat it constant is not working. I'd rather be a vegetarian. Seriously.

So tomorrow after work, it is my mission to find healthy recipes that aren't all chicken. *yuck*

Move along!

Heathers 2

So someone around Hollywood has been planting bugs in peoples ears about doing a Heathers 2. Seriously I'm all for it. It was the first movie that made me fall deeply and madly in love with Christian Slater. Yes he was a little crazy in that movie but that's what made me love him even more. LOL

I just hope it doesnt turn out like Lost Boys 2. That movie sucked big ole donkey balls. Seriously. I was NOT happy!

OH and doesn't Christian Slater's new show come on this week? Have I missed it already?

Eating Habits

My eating habits suck ass. I'm an emotional eater and with all the stress on me right now, it's just not a pretty site. I tend to avoid all mirrors so when I looked at myself yesterday I almost threw up.

So, today we went to the grocery store and I bought healthy foods. I just ate an apple with the carb friendly yogurt. It was good. And sweet. And totally not what I expected. I'm not sure what I expected but it wasnt that. I really need to change how I eat.

It's not really what I eat but how much and at what time. We ate after 8 last night and I swear for the past 3 nights. That's a real bad no no.

So I'm going to scour the internet and try to find a few more healthier recipes. All I bought was chicken (and I'm so not a fan of chicken). I have to find a way to cook it so I dont get tired of it.

I also bought apples (like I said before), baby carrots, fat free ranch (which I'm hoping doesn't taste as bad as I remember) and wheat english muffins.

So, starting today, I'm back on my health kick. I seriously need someone to kick my ass every now and then to keep me on track. I need someone questioning what I eat and when or if I'm working out. I just can't do this alone. I've tried.

So if my post in the near future slack off or are a tad bit bitchy (:)) please bear with me in this transition.

Thanks!! ;)

Office Pics

I hate the yellow. With a passion. Once you sit in here for a while your eyes start to go all blurry. I'm more than likely going to just paint it the same color as our extra bedroom. I think I have a half gallon of it left. It only took 1 coat last time so hopefully it'll only take one coat in the office too.

I got a wild hair today

Last week I was so down I hardly cleaned my house. It wasn't dirty to begin with but I just had no energy to get up and clean like I was suppose to. Well I made up for that today.

I spent 2 hrs working on our finances today. After that my energy level kicked into high gear. It could have possibly been panic mode. ;)

I cleaned my office. Really cleaned it. Not just hid stuff in drawers. *blushes*
I'll be spending more time in here since my monitor on the laptop busted and I'm not attached to a real monitor for the time being. So I'm stuck in the office staring at these yellow ass walls. *yuck*

So I got up and deep cleaned it. I even took pictures. :D

Then I got up and cleaned my husbands closet out. (we have 2 closets in our master) I cleaned all the crap up off the floor. It's amazing how he refuses to pick up a coat hanger after he knocks it off. *rolls eyes* I cleaned all of his old work uniforms off the top shelf that have been there forever. He wanted to save them to work in around the house but he hasnt worn them in I know a year and a half. Garbage. :D I got rid of all of his jeans that he hasn't worn in 2 years too. I haven't thrown them away yet though. I'm actually going to let him do that. Heaven knows as soon as I do he'll be looking for them. lol Then I vacuumed the floor in the closet. Since you know, I could actually see it.

I then vacuumed my mattress. Yep, my mattress. It's suppose to help with the allergens.

I washed 15 loads of clothes. OK, not really but it felt like it. Most of you know how bad I hate doing laundry. So I'd been putting it off for a while now. I got it all put up and the sheets changed.

I found my curtain tie backs in my husbands closet that I thought I threw away. So I put them on the curtains in the extra bedroom. Looks MUCH better now. :p

It's 8 p.m. now and I feel like I could run a marathon. I'm all hyped up.

Wonder what I can get into tomorrow? ;)~

Halloween Drinks

Found this over at Martha Daily

Original link found HERE



Just for grown-up goblins: Serve up a little black magic -- in the form of cocktails made with vodka that's as dark as night.

Ghost in the Graveyard
Serves 1
2 ounces black vodka
2 ounces creme de cacao or coffee-flavored liqueur
1 scoop vanilla ice cream
Pinch of finely grated nutmeg, for garnish

In a glass, combine vodka and creme de cacao, and set aside. Place a scoop of ice cream in a highball glass, and slowly pour vodka mixture over ice cream. Garnish with nutmeg; serve immediately.

Screwed-Up Screwdriver
Serves 1
1/4 cup ice
1/2 cup freshly squeezed tangerine juice
1 1/2 ounces black vodka
1 black licorice twist, for serving

Place ice in a tall glass. Pour juice into glass. Pour vodka over the back of a cocktail spoon into glass so it sits on top of juice and creates a layer of black. Slice 1/4 inch off each end of licorice, and use as a straw. Serve immediately.

Berry Scary Martini
Serves 1
1 cup ice
1 ounce black vodka
2 ounces cherry juice
Fresh raspberries and blueberries, for garnish

Combine ice, vodka, and cherry juice in a cocktail shaker; shake vigorously. Pour into a martini glass. Thread raspberries and blueberries onto a cocktail skewer, and place in drink. Serve immediately.

*Oh what I would give to host a Halloween party one year. Maybe once we get some land we can do it. These drinks look yummy!

How to torture your cat.

Aww. OK Baby, smile for the camera

Mom, this is embarrassing.

OK Ha Ha You've had your laugh now get this damn thing off me!





LOL Poor baby! I was shocked she even let me put it on her in the first place.

Just a few Halloween/Fall decor pics

It's not much but hell right now who can afford to go out and just blow money one seasonal decor? ;)